I AM ENGAGED!!!

Since I got engaged I decided to start a new blog about my future hubs and I. So if you're following me on here, go over to my new blog and follow me there, where I will be blogging from now on!

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I speak words when I feel this way.

I have a. . .wait for it. . . boyfriend! His name is Shane, and he's made me happier than I ever thought I could be.  We have only been dating since August 9th, but we have yet to go a day without seeing each other. I feel like I know everything about him and he knows everything about me. We fit together like two pieces of a two piece puzzle. We are perfect for each other.

Shane is the funniest guy I've ever met in my entire life. If you doubt me, check out his youtube videos, they are the greatest. http://www.youtube.com/user/Crenahs He is also the sweetest, most amazing, best guy I've ever dated, and I do. . . yes. . . I love him. Whoa, the L word?! Calm down, No! I do love him. (Whoa, multiple personalities fighting right there.)

My life is heading in a completely different direction than I expected it to. Had you told me a month ago that I would ever be this happy, ever feel this good about myself, ever have another boyfriend even, I'd have laughed in your face. I feel like a completely different person than I was just a month ago, and I don't even mind, I do not!

Shane is the first guy I have dated who has made me feel like a better person. I have changed some things in my life that were keeping me from being awesome, and I have made all of these changes willingly even! Shane makes me want to be a better person, and I love love love it! I have given up rated R movies and swearing, (WHOA?! Candice Hermansen isn't watching bad movies and saying bad words anymore?! Whoever thought they'd see that day?! "Not I", said the cat.) I wear my seat belt almost 100% of the time, (the only time I don't is when I honestly forget,) I don't speak so negatively anymore, I pray a lot more than I used to, and I just feel happier. My favorite is when I'm told I act happier than I used to. I love it, because I am happier than I was, happier than I've ever been, and you know it's not only because of Shane, but because I have made some very good decisions in my life recently. Go me!

I'm a very happy person now. I bet you'd enjoy my presence.

Oh just this one update.

No one reads this.

I don't even mind.


Update of my life. I got a job offer in St. George, amazing right?? I was going to take it, I wanted to take it, I should have taken it, but for some reason I couldn't get myself to take it! There's something about where I am right now that is just, right. Not sure if it has to do with my sister, some friends, my clients at work, or what, but I just need to stay here. I still want to move to St. George more than anything, but, it can wait a little while.

I am dating people and I am loving it! There are some I date that I most definitely like more than others, but most every guy is pretty awesome. It's so different than my past dating experiences. I'm used to attracting all sorts of creepers, really, ALL sorts, (nasty indian band guy, in trouble with cops guy, not show up twice in two days guy, make out psycho, too nice guy, girl from behind guy, guy who sends friend to go on date instead of him and doesn't bother telling you guy, and guy who talks on phone in theater during a movie while on the date, to name a few.) But lately I've been attracting normalish guys! By normalish I mean they're not normal enough to be boring, and not weird enough to be in the psycho category, does that make sense? Yes. For ONCE in my life, dating is really fun!

My job is getting crazy. I'm not sure what it is, but the clients have gone mad! Today alone I had one client open the door while I was driving, one client hit me while I was trying to drive, one client call the police, one client tangle her fingers into my hair, one client attack me by scratching, grabbing, and trying to bite, one client have to get restrained by 3 guys, and one client have a major freak out. I love my job, and all though the days are getting more and more difficult, I am trying my best to help these clients, because they deserve someone to treat them good and prove to them that you're not there for the money, you actually want to help them. As much as I talk bad about my job on the hardest days, I really appreciate them! If it weren't for the hard days, I wouldn't appreciate the good ones!

My little niece turns 2 today. She is flipping adorable, and she's having a Yo Gabba Gabba birthday party tomorrow night that I am a little too excited for! Happy Birthday Alyssa!!

I found something that I love, pinterest.com. It is an amazing website, and you don't have to be subscribed to it to enjoy it, (I'm not!) It's basically an electronic pin board where people post their favorite things. It's amazing, you will love it!

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So many things are happening in my life right now that it's hard to stay on the bright side, but I'm trying. I'm focusing on me and trying to do what's best for me. . . I just hope all the decisions I'm making are the right ones.

St. George

Hello blog! It sure has been a while! I used to be so good at keeping up with life on here, but it gets hard to write when you work 50+ hour weeks AND try to see friends once in a while. Oh my.

I just wanted to say something about St. George, UT. There is something about it that is calling my name! Ever since my first trip there, I told my parents, that one day I would live there. Back then it was because I wanted palm trees and I didn't want a yard I had to take care of. Now it's the atmosphere, the way it makes me feel. St. George just makes me happy. I don't know if it's the sun and heat or what, but I feel better in St. George.

I will live there one day, and I will love it.

Keep Holding On

As much as trials suck to go through, it seems like when you've overcome one, you always come out a better person because of it. While you're going through the trial, whether it's something like a loss of a loved one, low self esteem, break up, or something so much bigger, it can seem impossible to defeat. But you need to remember, and keep telling yourself, that God would never put you through anything you couldn't handle. One of the hardest things for me to remember is that my life is not that hard. Sometimes I think I have it so much worse than others, that my life is so tough, boo hoo, all that crap,so I often have to tell myself that, 1.You have absolutely NO idea what is going through other's heads or behind closed doors, and 2. That only means that you are a stronger person than some others are and God knows that. I'm not saying that remembering any of this will make a trial seem easier, or make it simply disappear, I'm just trying to tell not only myself, but those who I know are struggling right now, that everyone goes through it, and everyone survives it. There are ways to cope, and you will be okay in the end.

One song that I always listen to when I'm at my lowest low and want to curl up in my bed and never get out is Avril Lavigne's song, Keep Holding On. Super extremely cheesy, I know, but cheesy is not always a bad thing. Really though, the lyrics to this song can pull me out of anything. You're not alone, together we stand, I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand. When it gets cold, and it feels like the end, there's no place to go, you know I won't give in. Keep holding on, 'cause you know we'll make it through. Just stay strong, 'cause you know I'm here for you.

Awww, I think this is the absolute cheesiest post I have ever written. I don't care, I love it.


. . .Oh wow, I sound a bit scatterbrained in here as well. Hope it all can be understood in the way I wanted it to be. . .


Not sure how to end this. I guess what I'm trying to tell myself is I'm awesome and I can overcome anything. And hey, you're awesome and can overcome anything too I bet, 'cause if you're reading this, that means we're friends, and I don't have a single friend who is not freaking awesome!

Long Overdue

Wow. . . First of all let me apologize for not writing for so long. I have had a lot of, I guess you could call them, life changing events happen to me recently. I've been so busy I haven't been able to write. BUT, I finally found a little time when I can sit down, put my feet up, drink some diet coke, and write away.

• I have been working 50-60 hours a week at work. It's been challenging as I get so exhausted sometimes, but I do enjoy it. I get to drive a lot with my job, so that's a huge plus. Three days a week I go to Bountiful twice,  two days a week I go to Riverton twice, and all five days I go to Kearns, Taylorsville, and West Jordan two times. I used to go to Eagle Mountain and Pleasant Grove twice a week, but that part of my work ended. Hopefully I'll get a new group going in Lehi with the Pleasant Grove client also. More driving, woo! Besides the driving, I also have been having a lot of fun with my clients. It's been crazy at work since our day program doubled from five clients to eleven. The paperwork sucks, but the clients are so entertaining! My favorite so far was when one of our clients was using the bathroom, we heard him yell, "APPLE PIE!" For no reason, no reason at all. It was awesome. (Just an FYI for those who don't know, I run a day program for handicapped adults.)
• I went to my first concert that was not for a local band. I went to BRUNO MARS!! He is gorgeous, he is talented, he is a great dancer, he has a great body, he is. . . sigh. . . I'm in love with Bruno Mars. If he weren't a druggie, I'd be trying to convert and marry the crap out of him!
• I am single. No more missionary. At first it was only his decision, but as time went on, I realized that this is exactly what I needed to be truly happy. I need to be FREE. I need to let myself do what I want and not worry about anything else. I don't want any commitments with anyone. I want to be my own self, worry about my own self, and have fun for once. So. . . boys out there. . .  I'm single. ;)
• I bought these really awesome jeans from The Fashion Corner. It's a warehouse located in Draper, UT at 12577 S. 265 W. #3B, for anyone interested. My jeans are way cute and look designer, but they were only $4O each! I have never tried on a pair of jeans and been happy with the feel and fit, and I was VERY pleased right away with this place! They'd better stick around forever, because that's where I'm buying my jeans from now on.
• Katy Perry's new music video for TGIF is genius and I love it and recommend that all three of you who are reading this right now, go watch it as soon as you're finished reading! Do it! I Dare You!!
• I love He is We. I know I'm behind on finding them, but their song Happily Ever After is adorable and I can't get enough of it. I am a bit of a closet romantic. I pretend not to care and I hate PDA and I act like anything lovey is ewwwwww, but secretly. . . I can't get enough of it!!!
• A NEW artist that I found who is simply amazing, is Karmin. Look her up on youtube by searching for Karmincovers. I recommend her cover of Look At Me Now. It's awesome and her personality is unique. She's very entertaining to watch and I guarantee she'll have SOMETHING you'll like. She does a lot of covers, but she also has original songs and then some funny videos. She's so awesome.